If I had a billion dollars, YouTube will upload any video I want.

I can upload any video to YouTube, of course with ample money on the table. Such is the nature of things in this world of capitalism and money-making. When YouTube first to scene, I was excited about how open and frank sharing views going to be etc, I was optimistic that no more money-based censorship would hinder self-expressions. But that is just childish thinking, YouTube like any other media organization is in the game to make money, period.

Desteniproduction's 3000+ videos with 10 Million views got shutdown, of course with money, with ample money, that can be reverted. Money talks in this world. Money makes you alive or dead. Money is the GOD of existence. In the Tamil language, there is a saying, "Upon seen money, even a dead man will open his mouth". So true.

Did Youtube ever investigate the contents of desteniproduction's videos ? Or did they simply went by the false flagging of desteni videos? There are many haters of desteni, so I am not surprised those haters must have false flagged just for the heck of it. And Youtube without ever giving a fair investigation, just went on to shutdown all 3000+ videos. Very cruel indeed.

But the message of Equality for All, will continue to grow and spread, it cannot be stopped by money, nor by the gods of money, nor by any other force. Yes it is a slight bump on the road, as a destonian I do feel the pain and sadness of such cruel shutdown, but hey, we will continue within this breath, working with what is HERE.

No regrets, no shame, no sadness, no sorrow, nothing, simply breathing here within the physical, and effectively planning for the birth of next phase. Because the message of Equality for All can't wait for YouTube to correct itself.

The whole of existence is gearing towards equality for all. And it make sense, we have had enough abuses on this earth ever since man learned to walk on it. Therefore it is time that all life be considered equally, honored, respected, cared, and allowed to live a life in dignity.

At last, something REAL is happening, no wonder we got shutdown, join us, investigate desteni.

Thanks.  

Can you hear the sound of your breath?

The solution must be absolute, no half baked fixes will do. Either you will make it or not. Hence the key is to live as breath, within each breath. The body moves in unison with each breath. Otherwise the ego will take its turn and run all over you. Only the breath can contain the ego. And you are able to do it.

In this one life to live, it really matters to really live and make a difference, otherwise just like any other tom dick and harry, one lives and just dies away. Rather, LIVE, be here, breathe, cut the ego, rebirth yourself as LIFE, self forgive, bring about what is best for all. Be a real human not a robotic fool.

Death will come anyways, no matter how you live, death will visit you. So, rather live as breath, move the body in unison with the breath, cut the down ego by not allowing or feeding energy to it.

Living a life of an ego is just that, an egoic life, got no value whatsoever for anyone. Rather live as LIFE, be LIFE, all that begins with one simple thing: this breath here.

Lets breathe. Lets self forgive. Lets bring about what is best for all.

I have been struggling with breathing here without missing a single breath, but no regrets, i simply restart, re-breathing to rebirth. i mean if i give into regret, that's it, there is no standing up ever. so here i am, breathing again and again just to be HERE fully.

Can you hear the sound of your breath ?  well, what i mean is, do you know that you are breathing here now?

EQUALIFE - What does it mean ?

Since i got EQUALIFE as my license plates in the province of Ontario, few had questions about it. Obviously the word EQUALIFE though missing one 'L' still reads like EQUAL LIFE. Now the question is what does it mean? what does Equal life or Equality for All mean?

Does it mean communism ? No, Does it mean quota based affirmative actions? No. Does it mean anarchy ? No. Then what the hell is Equal Life or EQUALIFE really means?

Providing access to high quality of life for every human being is the aim of EQUALIFE, and that is provided unconditionally. Everyone has right to food and water, live, work, get medicine, see a doctor, education, housing, shelter, etc etc, all the basic needs to live with dignity will provided. All humans will have access to high quality of life. yes starting with equal money system, equal labor system, equal healthcare system, equal education system, equal housing system, etc. The purpose is not to create a quota system, not at all. The new systems will provide a high quality of life for all, unconditionally, just because you're a human being.

Now the big question, how will it be paid ? That is another blog, but the short answer is: we will redefine what money means, after all money is something we agree to give value to. who says 1 dollar means 1 dollar? it is matter of value assignment given to it.

Consider this: value of money is life. what we value is life, since everyone is life, we value all equally. we also value money as life. Though the fine details still to be researched, but the principle of equality for all, and all life supporting systems are rock solid. The "HOW TO" will be researched into finest details. It is indeed doable, sustainable, practical, pragmatic, above all it is what is best for all.

Next time you see my personalized ontario license plates reading EQUALIFE you will know what exactly it means. It is a practical reality that will be manifested here within next 20-30 years. Equal life, EQAULIFE will be here forever as practical heaven on earth.

Holy Cross Catholic Church, Thank You, now lets bring Equal Quality of Life to All.

Back in 1989 when I arrived in Canada all by myself, I found myself in a rather difficult situation. I came to Canada as an International student to study in University of Victoria in BC Canada. War was in high swing at that time in Sri Lanka, like most Sri Lankan Tamils, I wanted to get the fuck out of Sri Lanka alive. I was lucky to get admitted to study in Canada, I was fortunate enough that my parents paid my ticket to Canada and gave me enough money for first year to survive. There was no way of earth my parents could have support me though 4-5 years of University education as an international student (who pays 3-4 times higher than the local student) in Canada.

I met the campus Catholic chaplain and discussed my situation, here i was very alone, new to the country, just 20 years of age, with a bleak financial prospect, and my chances of continuing with my education looked increasingly bleak. The chaplain, late Rev. Father Leo Robert was a kind man, he understood my situation and moreover he understood that I cannot return to my native country, Sri Lanka. A slight possibility of deportation from Canada existed as well due to lack of funds for the 2nd year of school. Things looked very bad for me.

He arranged with his church, which i later became a member of, to assist and support me financially through my University by providing me with a bursary. A heavy burden was taken out of my head, my life changed completely, I could now focus on education and not about money or place to live etc.

The good people at the Holy Cross Catholic Church in Victoria BC full-filled Fr. Leo's request and supported me financially.   They bailed me out of a seriously difficult personal life situation.

Some 21 years later, I am living a good life as a Canadian Citizen, things indeed good for me.

But today, I write this note about a situation that is much more darker and serious. And I am writing this to request their support one more time. This time, I personally request the Church and their members to really investigate the situation and make personal contributions.

Now I am with a group called desteni, a group that is dedicated to bring Equal Quality of Life for All humans. This will be done via a series of life supporting systems called: Equal Money System, Equal Labor System, Equal Housing System, Equal Education System, Equal Healthcare system etc. It is a serious undertaking and it will be done. However, at this stage, the desteni group is at "Research Phase", meaning, handful of dedicated beings on a full time basis do research on things that matters to life. Above all, they support us robotic humans to become real humans, which is essential for a world to change.

In supporting me, essentially the Holy Cross Church supported 1 human being, though i am grateful, but that support did not reach the whole world, it did not touch all 6-7 billion of us. Whereas by supporting the desteni group in their research efforts, your contributions will bring about a change for the whole world. It will touch the lives of 6-7 billion humans, in fact everyone of them. A world will be changed.

In the next 20-25 years, desteni solutions to world problems will be presented via a political forum, via a political entity. We will be elected and above mentioned life supporting systems will be implemented in ever country. Humans will at last live without the burden of fear and anxiety. Just like how the good people of Holy cross catholic church bailed me out of anxiety and worry, Equal Money System will bail out every human being.

For this, desteni group must be supported and assisted. Of course the best support is to join them, and be them.

So this is a very kind request to all Holy Cross Church members, friends, my brothers, my family and to all so-called strangers to support desteni group. Desteni Research must continue, Equal Money System must be implemented. This world must be changed so that it is BEST for All.


Thank you.
Anton.

Car Insurance costing too much ?

I am hunting for a car these days, i learned my car insurance could cost about 60-70% of my monthly car payments. so in 10 years, i would have paid about $13,000 in just insurance payments. very fascinating this insurance business.

I recall in the olden days back in Sri Lanka the village farmers had something similar to insurance concept. the idea is simple and above all, its best for all. this is how it worked:

Lets say there are 20 farmers in this little village, every month each farmer would put a monthly contribution to the collective cash pot, and the pot is given to one farmer each month. in this way, each farmer gets the pot once. this is very similar to insurance payments, from the perspective of monthly payments, where each farmer must make his payments for every month for 20 months. So every farmer gets the cash pot once. every farmer gets to have one big month. and there is no concept of profit here, no concept of money-managers, no concept of administrative fee, its all collected by the farmers, and shared by the farmers.

Whereas now, every driver is paying monthly payments, say there are 10 million drivers in canada, and each driver is paying nearly 100$ a month, that is a whopping 1000 million dollars collected as monthly car insurance payments by the large insurance companies. that is 1 billion dollars btw. now, don't tell me all that 1 billion$ is going back to the community of drivers. no not at all. small part of it goes to pay for car accidents and payouts as they call them. but large part of it is pocketed by the collectors in this case the large insurance companies.

so for 1 month, a whopping 1 billion dollars and for 1 year, 10 billion $$$$$. well, you do the math, all in the name of covering each driver for safety from accidents and injuries. A really good way to suck billions of dollars using fear,

that is what insurance is all about, making money out of fear.

whereas in the olden village collection was for the collective good of all farmers. its good for each farmer, its good for all farmers. very simple pooling of money for the good of all.

now within the equality systems of things, we are not returning to the village style of insurance,we go beyond and above that formula. we simply cover and protect every human being. that is precisely what equal money system is all about. supporting covering, protecting every human being with full support. no need for profit based insurance giants to protect us. they are not protecting us, they are making money in the name of protecting us.

so for now, i will have to get a car and pay the fucking insurance premium, there is no other choice. we have to live in the system now. though i am very fed up with this fucking system of profit making in every juncture of one's life here. this is the madness we have created for ourselves.

So its urgent, we bring a new world of equality for all to live in dignity. for this, i am unconditionally a voice and a vote for world equality.

please join us. thanks.

A Guide to Step-Parenting.

I am here. Feb 5, 2011, my daily blogging continues.

Parenting I understand is a difficult job. Step parenting has an extra touch to it. I am a step father, my 9 years old step son, is a very sweet child like any other 9 year old is, over the last 2-3 years we have developed something cool between us, but when it come to matters of discipline we hit a zone of discomfort.

Tonight along with his friend, three of us went to snow sledging, my first time snow outing, It was very much fun. Children like it when adults have fun with them. I first said no to going out playing with him and his friend, but later agreed, it wasn't much cold outside, so around 8pm we started snow sledging. He had a ball with his friend, sometimes three of us would ride downhill together, and race against each etc.

I found the key to sledging is to remain as the breath as you rush downhill, no room for thinking of course. Have to ride along with the momentum, any jerky movements against the momentum is asking for trouble. A cool simple sport to remain within the physical and not think for god sake.

But like all fun activities, there comes a time to go home, the fun ends, got go home and do home stuff. So when i say, time to go home, we hit that discomforting area of discipline. I know, when I was a kid, no one could stop me from playing cricket, weekends i would play sometimes 8 hours a day, coming home just to grab  a bite, then back to the fields of endless joy of playing cricket. Only thing would actually make me go home would be the sunset, when darkness is here and you cannot humanly look at that cricket ball anymore, when such eventual sad fate arrives here, we would very unhappily declare that its now time to go home. That was back in the late 70s and early 80s in Sri lanka, So naturally, kids love to play, and they just can't take the word 'enough' to end their party.

I take it personally his apparent disobedience, and apparent 'not listening' to my instructions, though what i am asking him to do is within the sphere of practicality and common sense. This 'not listening to me', 'not listening to my instructions', 'must follow the set rules' etc, are clearly my bullshit mindfucks that i accepted and allowed within me.

Step parenting is an ex-ordinary art, on the one hand, i must develop a bond with him as a natural father would, and yet on the other hand, i cannot be seen as uncool or mean by imposing any form of discipline upon him. If there is any issue between us, my wife would pick up very quickly and of course things then can compound.

I could risk a double loss by been a strict or disciplining father. I can ask but cannot demand. Hence, more often I take a light hearted and fun loving approach with him, and i like that too. our father-son relation is more fun in nature, than the old style imposing strictness and discipline etc. I am not a father-figure, i am actually a fun-figure, i give him lots of attention, yes there are things i am responsible for, not just always having fun.

Having fun is the easy part with him, the moment I ask for discipline, we hit that discomfort. And i get bit angry too, not very cool. So what i found is, effective communication, no emotion, no drama, simple effective direct communication and a clear understanding of his responsibilities and possible consequences if things are not in line.

Sort of an agreement just for the specific task at hand. Once we went on a road trip to Baltimore from Ottawa, so before the journey began, we came up with a road-trip-agreement, god help us, it actually worked. Everything was already discussed and written on paper. It help me prepare myself too, allowing me check my bullshit mind patterns that gets kicked by the child.

Sometimes when father-child issues between us pop up, my wife would ask me this question, "would you do this to your own child?" . Standing for equality, i must be very clear on how I will answer that question.

My own son, or a step son, what difference is there? Are they not equal and one as life as me ? Will i deny one and favor the other? Will i support one more than the other? Here equality equation requires a direct application in my immediate reality. Some questions of course, i cannot answer as i don't' have a child of my own,  but i do know, "what i do unto my step son, I do unto myself'. that is the magical guide to step parenting. Another a great reason to live as the breath of life, for within the breath no such concepts such step parent or step child exist, because simply i am here as the breath of life, and here is the child, and there exist responsibility, no need for 'step' or 'my own' concepts.

Life is indeed indivisible, all is one and equal.

King's Speech: Teach the King Self-Forgiveness, please.

I am here. Today is Jan 30, 2011. My daily blogging continues.

I am committing myself to write at least a few minutes everyday about myself, contributing to self writing. I realise once i fall behind in this even one day, it gets accumulated, meaning, one missed day soon be two missed days, then three etc. Then, it wont' be too long when i will have missed a whole week of missed days. Therefore tonight, i have all the reasons to not spend any time writing, as it is already 12:35am, obviously way past bed time, and I am sleepy and tired. I just don't' want to skip even a day in self writing, i know, a day can easily be two, three days. So no, i am here, taking just another 10 minutes to write myself out a bit.

So tonight the point is preciously that, not giving up self writing even for a day no matter what. And it doest' have to be a long piece, just 10 mins is sufficient just to keep the self commitment to daily blogging continue. The key word is 'daily'. Self writing daily.

Yes, i am writing myself to freedom daily.

Tonight, i saw the movie, 'the king's speech'. A king whose voice is stuck within himself out of sheer fear and memories. Stammering as he speaks becomes a serious stumbling block for himself as he assumes the responsibilities of the crown. A kind friend and a teacher, assist him with self expression, by showing the king his fears. Let the fears go, let the memories of the fears go, are the advice of the friend to the king to be. Bravely, the new king delivers his first speech, his first war time speech. ha ha, same bullshit isn't it. Been fearless didn't make the king , a king for all, but rather a king for war. same old bullshit. But there is not the point there.

By learning to undo one's fears, the king is able to over come his stammering voice, and is able to voice himself out.

Self forgiveness does preciously that and more. Self forgiveness allows me to overcome my fears, and assist me to voice myself clearly and preciously. My self expression develops. I speak clearly and directly. Moreover, self forgiveness is assisting me with self rebirth through the physical. King George the VI didn't' know self forgiveness, he only overcame his stammering voice,

With self-forgiveness so much is possible, it is becoming of life. It is to rebirth self as life and to rebirth a practical heaven to us all.

King's speech the movie is cool, as it shows how limiting life can be when living with fears etc. But the movie is just that, a feel good sensational hollywood of one man's triumphed over his limitations. If the simple advice of a friend can change the course of a king, imagine, with the power over self forgiveness and self honesty, a whole new world can be manifested by self honest humans,

No need for kings anymore, as each of us, is a king/queen. Equal and One.

So the simple message i gave to myself after seen the movie is: Scream self forgiveness to overcome all my fears, no more fears, none whatsoever.

Cool. As per the king himself, George the VI still went to war, he didn't rebirth himself as life, nor did he bring out equality for all. Basically, he was a useless king, like a bug on the windscreen, he was gone, when his time was up. A useless life royally lived indeed.

Since embracing the desteni process, I have found a passion, meaning, and purpose to my life. This is simply a magic, how i have become so dedicate to life and equality for all. I have indeed surprised myself. Is this really me? It is an amazing journey.

I will not say, long live the king, but certainly, I will say, long live the 'equality for all' as it is the way to heaven on earth. No royals are needed.

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