My backchats must be written down.

backchatting continues. quick to blame, quick to find faults, quick to label, quick to judge, all that shit is backchatting. quick to attach value to an experience, quick to recall the fire from the memories are nothing but backchatts. another word for backchatting is monologues, dialouge inside the mind. you know the shit that goes inside the mind. it says it knows everything, it knows what even others think. 'i know' i know everything that is a backchat.

i want to really get down to business with my backchat, i want to catch the fucker on paper. well i am that fucker who is always thinking about some wicked plan about others. yes it is their fault, they did that to me, they said that to me, they are planning against me, of course, they are ganging up against me. gosh, wtf, the moment i think i am risking landing on a backchat. not acceptable. so i breathe, i am here. lets get the full details on backchat on paper.

gosh before i put my backchats into physical actions, i better stop this asap.

thats it for tonight.

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Can you recall the thoughts you had 2 years ago? or 2 hours ago ?

i am investigating to write a diary about my back-chats, meaning i want to jot down all my mental dialogues that i have. i want to start writing those mind-chats daily. all those conversations inside the head, all those blames, fears, yelling and other bullshit that goes inside my grey matter must be written down.

As i want to see what i entertain within my mind on a regular basis. after all, i have spent forty plus years inside my mind yet i don't recall what i was thinking just 2 hours ago. well forget about 2 hours ago, i don't' recall what i was thinking just 20 minutes ago. surely i won't be able to recall my backchats say 10 years ago. i mean, yet in 10 years ago, or 20 years ago i lived a hellish life thanks to my mind dialogues though i have no record of it.

so its time to record my daily mental conversations in detail. so that i can see for myself what i have been doing inside my mind. i mean all my physical actions were result of my mind discussions. i want to see my own creator on written form.

yep time to write mind-chats, backchat down on paper.