Why hanging onto old photos?

With FB, i am connecting with old friends and memories. seen photos from school days some 30 years back is very cool indeed. but the question is, why hang onto those memories, or such nostalgic feelings ? looking for familiarity? looking to reactive old memories? when i first made contact with my old school friends, i was very excited to reconnect and rechat with them, but soon after that, there was really nothing to talk about. you can only talk so much about old school days. with time, we have all grown up, 25-30 years is a long time.

if anything, old photos should remind us how quickly life passes away. i mean, 25-30 years are gone, some innocent looking kids back then are now pretty much grown up and looking rather old too. seen the passing of time via old photos is a moment for self-reflection.

what have i done with my life? in all that 25-30 years, what have i achieved? what have i contributed to this world ? nothing really, more of the same worries and anxieties. and then one fine day, passing of time will stop, no more breaths left. photography will end with one last photo of resting in the coffin.

many of my former school teachers and masters in the old photos are now dead, they were once the pillars of my world. the math teacher, the science teacher, the principal, you name it, they are all gone now. dead. just an old photo or two remains. thanks to FB, we get to walk that memory lane again, just for a moment.

looking at my life thru photos sucks. looking at life thru pictures and memories is rather sad actually. i would rather look at my life via what is here now. what have i contributed, what i have brought about for this world?

hence, i want equal money system to be here implemented, then i can see it here and feel good about it. equality for all is the real achievement to be happy about. ending the poverty for good is the real deal. at the end of my time, i like to see this world as is, and i want to be proud of that world i will be leaving behind.

i dont' need old photos to hang onto, to give me a sense of belonging or a feeling. the world here as-it-is, is the real evidence of what i will leave behind. and for that, i will be relentlessly speaking for world equality, for nothing else really matters.

Embracing the physical with a viral flu

This is the time to embrace the physical. though i am not 100% sure what is that mean. with tsunamis going around, mother nature , the physical is showing us humans something. for myself, my human physical body is showing me something these days as i am down with a viral flu.

the doctor's office is packed, its a walk in clinic, as i don't have a family physician. first thing i do as enter the clinic is show the magic health card, such is the power of the current medical system. no card no service, unless you're willing to pay an arm and a leg. anyway that besides the point.

my physical body is down with a viral flu according to the doctor. 2 days i called in sick at work. already feeling guilty for been off from work. such is mind programming, have to goto work no matter what, otherwise the police officer inside my head will take over.

yeah embrace the physical, as bernard said other on chat. embrace the physical. for me it means, the breath, which is the nearest physical thing to me, my breath, the one i am breathing here now. certainly 'embrace the physical' cannot mean thinking or going into the mind. be here in the body as breath, attend to physical things, with hands, touch, cut veggies, wash dishes, clean the snow, be here, anything but thinking.

yeah not feeling well at all, with the flu, taking lots of water, juices etc, water is cool support to the human body. do you know water is the only in-take that is not digest by the human body ? cool isn't it. if anything, water is life.

yeah embrace the physical, still not sure what it means 100%. for now, i will breathe, drink a lot of water, get out of my mind. i sure don't' need a Japanese style tsunami in my backyard to remind me to embrace the physical. over 10,000 killed i wonder what humanity will learn from it.

The physical is here and embrace it, and whatever that means.

2004 Tsunami collections by Redcross.

well collecting money during natural disasters is now a routine thing. during 2004 boxing day tsunami in south east asia, the red cross organization around world was able collect a hung sums, million of dollars.

one wonders how much exactly did the redcross collect? how was it spend ? what was the administrative cost ? what percentage of that actually went to luxury travels and hotels stays of redcross staff ? the real victims, how much did they receive in actual dollar figures ? donations and so called distributions to the victims is a huge scam. has the redcross ever published the figures in utter details including the big perks and salaries their bosses are making ?

i will never buy that UN christmas dolls that the UN volunteers sell during xmas. you have no idea how big those UN relief agencies bosses make, huge in fact. somehow the UN volunteers are doped to believe that they are doing a noble thing.

there is nothing noble about charity darling.

Japan's Tsunami: a market to make quick money.

it is disgusting to realize that japan's disaster is chance for quick money making. i mean wtf. so this is the nature of capitalism and profit making, i mean profit making will never rest, it is always hungry to make a quick buck. here is a great chance for all those NGOs and relief agencies to make some money. all in the name of supporting the victims. Redcross collected millions during the 2004 tsunami so what happened to all that money, any accountability? none. so this bullshit will continue as long as survival and profit making is what our system promotes. hence a new system is needed, an equal money system. where all are supported equally, equal quality of life.

if you really dare to care, you must study equal money system. visit equalmoney.org.

that's it for tonight.