Self-forgiveness: Judgments about English Accents.

For the first time in my, I had to deal with discrimination based on foreign  English accents, here I was the discriminator. From the moment I met this person recently, I went into severe judgments and anger, I just couldn't believe how much bullshit I carry within myself. Here I am, an immigrant in Canada, I have a thick accent in English, most people don't understand half things I speak. And yet, I was all ready to trash and ban another just because he/she got an accent very much like mine, perhaps bit more foreign, or thicker accent. I reacted so much that I am avoiding talking to this person now, I keep it to a minimum. Mere listening to this person makes me feel very uncomfortable. It goes to show how much self judgments I am carrying in relation to English accents. Time to release them with self forgiveness. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others when they have thick English accents. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge another as dumb and stupid because the way he/she pronounce the English words.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge another as dumb because he/she got a very thick foreign accent.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid another because he/she got a such a thick foreign accent that I cannot bare to listen to them speak.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge another based on his/her accent, assuming that one's accent in English to indicated level of intelligence. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge another's accent so much so, that I avoid facing that person. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide from facing other person because he/she got a such a thick accent in English, which I assume as stupidity. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize this person that I am avoiding because of his/her accent, I do so because he/she mirrors me. I am avoiding myself by avoiding others. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear talking to another who has got a very thick accent in English, that I interpret as stupidity. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my own self judgments and beliefs and mirrored through this  person. I am seen myself in this person, therefore I see my own self judgments. After all I too have a very thick accent in English, that is precisely why I judge the other for his/her accent. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that those with 'funny' English accents to be dumb and stupid. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that anyone with a very heavy accent to be dumb and stupid. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assume that nice accent means good intelligence, and bad accent means stupidity. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define English accents as good or bad, hence associate them to his/her intelligence. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate English accent to intelligence. Now that is a dumb ass thing to do.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize all I need is bit of patience and bit of attentive listening to understand those with heavy accents. Their accents don't make them dumb and stupid as I have concluded within myself. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid those with heavy accents because it makes me feel very uncomfortable. Because I too have an accent, therefore I see my own self judgments via others. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others, not realizing all those judgments I carry within myself about myself. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that its OK for me to be dumb and stupid but not for others. so when I hear them speak with 'bad' accents I allow myself to punish them. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be avoiding even listening to his/her normal conversations because I assume other's accent is so bad, that's not even worth to hear them. Each is me, in avoiding them, I am avoiding myself.


I breathe, and not let accents to bother me. I breathe, and be very attentive when I hear a foreign accent. People's accents don't make them stupid, unless I have such self-judgments about myself. 


I stop all such bullshit ideas about accents, it just a sound of how one speak, there is no right or wrong way to sound a word. Believing in accents is a goddamn pre-program, its not real. breathing here is real, listening attentively to another is real. Been here as breath while listening another is real. 


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