Depression and Sadness: Self-Forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as sadness.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into sadness.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to activate sadness within me by thinking.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that sadness get activated because i think about something. it is self created.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all feeling is self created. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to self create my sad feelings within me.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself believe that sadness come all by itself, not realizing sadness come because i think about sad stuff hence the sad feeling is activated.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad as if that it will give me solace. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad and unhappy.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel pain and sad within me.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that sadness to be real. not realizing in one breath i can be here as physical and sadness will wind down.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize i am my own master, self mastery is the key here. As one breath by breath, i can remain here as physical to over come sadness. As sadness will not last for eternity. Breath by breath I must remain here, as physical in that i will overcome sadness as well as establish my self mastery. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that another person must assist me in removing my sadness. in that i am asking for a slave to make me happy, whose entire life must rotate around making me happy and nothing else. clearly i am asking for a slave.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself desire another to remove my emptiness and sadness, as if the other has all the power in the universe to remove my sadness, not realizing i am placing a huge burden on the other. Whereas I must be my own self master. I remove my own sadness.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself want another to make me happy, because apparently i am unable to care for myself. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want and need another to care for me. give me support, tell me what to do, etc, because i apparently can't care for myself. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad and unhappy, in that i have allowed myself to live in depression. not realizing all this is drama for needing attention from others. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire attention from others and when i dont' get it, i become so sad and gloomy. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad and gloomy. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad and depressed because in doing so i am demanding attention from others, so as a trick i confine myself to sadness and depression.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to entirely give up on self responsibility and confine myself to sadness and depression. in all that i am demanding attention and 'care' from others, not willing to stand up as breath of life here. in this moment.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that sadness happens by itself, not realizing that is a trick, clearly sadness happens because I think about sad shit which activates sadness, I am my own creator. viola.


I stop this self creation of sadness. Instead I breathe, remain here as the physical. When and as I feel sad, I know, I have created it by thinking about sad shit, so I stop it in one breath, I stop the madness of sadness in one breath. 


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Astrology has Limited me. No more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking responsibility for myself and for others as myself.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I may fail if I take responsibilities so might as well not go there. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must live my life as  a free bird. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define freedom as having no responsibilities whatsoever. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as a free bird meaning one who has no responsibilities at all rather wondering around in freedom like a bird. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up any chance that comes for me to take responsibility. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up any moment that comes for me to take responsibility.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a Sagittarius therefore I am bounded to be a free bird, not seen that binding to freedom itself is slavery which I have accepted and allowed for myself.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the nature of me based upon astrological descriptions and therefore I have allowed myself to be limited.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit me as a Sagittarius and therefore believe me to be a free spirited bird who can never settle down or take responsibility for self or for others as self.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a wise man because that is what Sagittarius suppose to be, and within that justify not taking responsibility, after all wise men suppose to just sit around and give lectures. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who i am based on the Sagittarius descriptions. In that I have allowed myself to limit me as life. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as a wise free man who can only give lectures but can never settle down or take responsibilities. because after all i am a wise man.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as a joy loving fun loving free spirited carefree wise man. In all that i have allowed myself to be an irresponsible human being. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as a carefree rebel in the family who can never take anything seriously because I am supposed to be a carefree happy go lucky free bird. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate freedom to irresponsibility, never taking anything seriously because after all i am here to just have some fun.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ignore myself and others as myself because i see myself as a carefree fun loving rebel free bird, in that i have allowed and justified myself to be an irresponsible human being. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to get excited within me whenever i read about my astrological description. Because Sagittarius are always free and fun loving, and i have allowed myself to feel happy whenever i read such bullshit because all i wanted to hear was: its ok to not take any responsibilities in life, because life is after all suppose to be lived in freedom and carefree like a free bird. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as a free bird meaning one who can never take anything seriously, one who never take any responsibilities. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to curse myself as a Sagittarius because in been a Sagittarius i have allowed myself to justify been lazy and irresponsible. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to read my daily Horoscope to feel good about myself and continue to feel happy to be a free bird. after all that is what Sagittarius are all about.  free birds. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define me as a double Sagittarius because i am also a money based on Chinese astrology which makes me a double free bird one who can never take responsibilities. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am a Chinese monkey and see myself as a wise care free fun loving free bird jumping around never settled, just like a money, in all that i have allowed myself to never take responsibilities. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use Chinese and Western astrology to justify been an irresponsible human being. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be an irresponsible human being. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use astrology to justify been irresponsible. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to limit me and isolate me by trusting in astrology. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed me to believe in astrology and allowed it to define me.


I stop this bullshit right here right now. I am not based on any astrological descriptions or signs. I am here as the breath of life. 


When and as I see myself as a Chinese monkey or a Sagittarius, I stop that nonsense, and return to breathing. As I realize I am not a definition of any kind, I am simply here as breath and taking responsibility for myself and for others as myself. 


I breathe. I am here.

Customizing your next Reincarnation is a Nightmare.

Believing in reincarnation is the easy part, now here comes the difficult part. Exactly how would you like your next life to be ? Have you considered customizing your next birth? Here is how I like my next life to be:

Surely, I would like to be born as a human, I mean who wants to be born as a cow for example, why would I want to walk into all that cutting and chopping, for what. No way, I decline the option to be born as a cow or any animal for that matter. 

Even within the human category, I would like make some very specific selections, and will most certainly decline some undesirable features. 

Hunger: no way. I will never want to be born into a family where I will have to starve or have no water for days. Impossible, I will never chose such an option for my next life.

Homelessness: positively not. I like to sleep in a warm nice bed, under the protective cover of a nice house, secure and safe. I will not pick this option, leave it others in the streets of Calcutta perhaps. 

Poverty: No way. I like to enjoy my life, never will I consider a life of poverty, never. How will I enjoy a good quality of life, I will always have to worry about survival and nothing else. Poverty is a depressing life, not for me, thanks.

Rape: Oh on, I will never take that option, nope, I will never want to be born as a woman who will get rape once in a while. It might be fun for the rich powerful man, but the utter agony and trauma of rape, who wants that. Nope, not even want to be born as a prostitute, I will never want to do such jobs to feed my family. Never. 

No Education: decline. I like to be well read and like to write as well, as you can see in this blog, I love writing. So education is vital for my well being, so I will never want to be born into a situation where I will be uneducated or where education will not be a right, but only privilege. No thanks that next life is option is not for me. I like to have full access to my education in my next life. 

Polluted City: Oh no, I don't want to be living in a dirty polluted city. No thanks. Who wants to inhale all that shit. I like fresh clean air.

Dirty water: Oh no, I like to have nice clean fresh water. No reincarnation for me, if I have to drink dirty water from the rotten rivers like many do today. God no way, I would rather not reincarnate. 

Crime: Oh no, I don't want to be born into a place where there is crime and violence, I don't want to risk getting myself hurt as a child or as an adult, I mean what kind of life would that be, to live in constant fear of getting physically hurt. No thanks. 

No medicine: Oh no. I like to have full access to medical services that are either affordable or free. I mean I don't want to born into a life where i will have to pay arm and a leg to get rid of a seasonal flu. What kind of a horrible life is that.

You see the nightmare, customizing my next reincarnation is a scary task, looking at the current world situation today, I am very worried about my next life. Looks like finding that very specific life supporting situation to be born into is a nightmare already.  

We have a hellish world today, so what are the chances of finding a good decent situation/environment to pick for my next reincarnation? I am very worried indeed. We need a solution to fix this world now, so my reincarnation can be a cool experience. No more suffering at all.

Equal Money System will assure a practical living heaven for your next reincarnation on this earth. For this reason alone, I stand and support EMS unconditionally. And if you have any sense of self-love, join us, join Equal Money today, lets bring a practical heaven on earth. So all may enjoy a good life, now and in ages to come.

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All is me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to run away from here into the delusion of thinking and memories.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid this breath here and desire to go into the mind and its fantasies.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire running away from here from life here. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not realize that my desire to run away is my desire to avoid me, its my desire to avoid facing me. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have more important things to do than write self forgiveness statements every day. In that I am trying to avoid facing me.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to still doubt self forgiveness because I believe that I can still find ways to avoid looking at the real shit. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself avoid myself and desire to run away to safer places where I dont' have to deal with me. or deal with another as me.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself avoid others as myself.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid others and other events as myself. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid others as myself, and avoid situations as myself, avoid discussions as myself, avoid even confrontations as myself. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am an island, a useless island, so i can avoid others and events as myself. Not realizing, that no such avoidance is possible, as all and everything here is me as another life. (you are me in another life). 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the reason i fear others, or other events as myself is because i fear my own reaction to outside world. I fear my own anger and hatred to others outside of me. In that i look to hide from others.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide from me, by avoiding others and other situations and events. Not realizing all and everything here is ME in another form/life. All is equal and one.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hide from this world which is myself. this world is myself here. 


I realize the solution is breath, here. If I am breathing here, then, I am not going to react to any hell that is within or without, yet can effectively direct anything that is going on here. I mean if I am reacting to something or someone, then, I will go along with the songs of this world, which is rather hellish. 


So few things: dont' react, dont' get carried away with the goings of this world, dont' avoid this world, fully participate in this world, for all that, I must be here as the breath of life. Only in breathing here, could I possibly be an agent of change. Only in been as the breath of life here, could I possible bring any change to this situation here or within me, otherwise, all I am doing is a reaction. Reactions are of the mind. While responsible actions are self-directed, that is only possible me as the living breath here.


I breathe here. So when and as I see anything within or without, realizing that in and out is equal and one, I simply remain here as the  breath of life. I breathe, then, I direct myself to act if needed in what is best for all. At times, I may simply walk out of a situation, even that is done as breath here, not as a reaction. Reactions will bring time loops.


I breathe, I am breath here. Can't avoid anything in this reality, as all is me as others.    

Which Breath is More Important?

Ever wonder which breath is more important? From the first breath to the last breath in our lives, so many breaths we take in, yet does it ever occur as to which breath is more important and why?


I say the last breath is the most important one as it end the bullshit of living nightmare we see within us and all around us. OK, lets leave the last breath aside as a special case, and so what about all other breaths we take in throughout a lifetime ? Which breath is more important?  Clearly some breaths must be more important than others at least going by how we live out each breath. 


Been here with this person is more important than been over there alone in my room for example, or been at work is more important than standing in line at the grocery store, so in how we live out each breath, it is easy to see that some moments/breaths are more important than some other moments/breaths. Within that, some people are more important than others, hence a world of inequality is created by not giving equal attention to each breath here. 


The breath here is LIFE. This breath here is LIFE. And believing some other breath other than this breath here to be more important, takes me out of here into the delusion of mind and its projections. Here means this breath here. To live here means to be here as this breath here. Therefore each breath here is life, hence equal, everyone here within this breath is equal to me, nobody or no thing is more or less than any other. As I breathe this breath here, All is here with me, equal and one. 


Within that arise the question of responsibility to all there is here including those starving and homeless millions. Within each breath I take, it is my responsibility to care, support and consider all that is here within this breath I take. 


It is a privilege to breathe, and it implies a responsibility for self and for all others as self here. If I am only breathing for my own selfish wants and needs, I am nothing but a selfish fucker, a burden on earth soon to be forgotten. Hence I commit myself within this/every breath I take in, to support and bring about an Equal Money System that is best for all.


All breaths are equal, likewise, all living beings are equal, so they must be all supported and cared for, that is what an Equal Money System is all about.


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How to live for Eternity?

What is Eternity? An eternity is a tinniest actual time available to be real, here physical, whose duration is ample and total. A day is not an eternity, neither a century. A breath is an eternity because during a moment of breath, during that space/time, whatever I do or say, sets the course for rest of my life, therefore really, a moment of breath is a moment of creation, because a moment of breath creates the rest of my life. This breath here creates the rest of my life. What I do or say in the breath sets the course for rest of my life. 


An example: here I breathe and in this breath, I throw a knife at a bystander, now what happens? In that action in one breath of time, will place in me in jail for good number of years, basically life is over. I know that is a crazy stupid example, not many are likely to do such crazy stuff.  


But it may be so, in one moment of breath, I might speak a word, a nasty word, a nasty look, a nasty judgement, a nasty comment, a nasty question, a nasty thought, a nasty blame, a nasty fault-find, a nasty accusation, a nasty doubt, a nasty make-belief all or any of those crazy things can happen in one breath of the moment here, and in that create a hellish time for rest of my life. 


The power of creation that lies within a moment of breath here, makes it the ultimate moment, hence its an eternity. That's all there is. Don't be fool and wait for years and years for eternity to arrive, while all along its here in this very breath. 


A breath is eternity, as there is nothing outside of it. All that exist is this eternal ever present moment here as this breath. As brick by brick a wall is build, likewise, breath by breath, years are lived. 


So to live for an Eternity, I must live in this ONE breath here. Eternity is only here now as this breath. All of creation happens in this one breath. Its not too hard to live apply the principle of what is best for all, just in this one breath. 


It has been a struggle for me, but I realize, I must live within this one eternal moment, here, as eternity.  Otherwise I am just gone lost in a fucked up mental space of fantasy. 


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FAQ - Equal Money System - 50 Videos.

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01-FAQ Basic income grant


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02-FAQ Will there be banks in an Equal Money System



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03 - FAQ Betrothing my estate to my children



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04 - FAQ Gambling and betting and sports



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05 - FAQ How will land be distributed or how will it be decided who gets what house



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06 - FAQ How will people be motivated in an free society in an equal money system



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07 - FAQ How will the basic income grant be capitalized



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08 - FAQ How will you get everyone to agree to an equal money system



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09 - FAQ Isn’t equal money just communism



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10 - FAQ Leadership and the equal money system



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11 - FAQ What is going to happen to the private corporations and the businesses of people



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12 - FAQ Why don’t we use the media like television to spread the equality message



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13 - FAQ Will equal money be actual physical money that is printed



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14 - FAQ Will I own my own house



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15 - FAQ Won’t most people abuse the system



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16 - FAQ Who will enforce the equal money system



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17 - FAQ Will I not lose free choice in an equal money system



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18 - FAQ How will the equal money system be implemented



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19 - FAQ How would equal money system pay for resources and energy and products



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20 - FAQ Will we all have micro - chip implants



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21 - FAQ Why is equal money no a violent revolution



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22 - FAQ How would food be manufactured and produced



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23 - FAQ Cars in an equal money system – who will make them and who will get them



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24 - FAQ Will I still be able to buy the things that I like



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25 - FAQ How will we make sure that products are made to last



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26 - FAQ Can I profit from equality



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27 - FAQ What about rewards for great performance within an equal money system



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28 - FAQ Who will want to study to become a doctor



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29 - FAQ What will happen to my debt in an equal money system



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30 - FAQ Life insurance in an equal money system



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31 - FAQ How do we decide what is the standard of basic living



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32 - FAQ How  will we get rid of toxic waste and other side effects of capitalism



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33 - FAQ Money isn’t everything



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34 - FAQ Will everyone wear the same clothes



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36 - FAQ What is intervention



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37 - FAQ What will happen to criminals



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38 - FAQ What will happen to the elite



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39 - FAQ What will the justice system look like



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40 - FAQ What will the police army and navy do



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41 - FAQ a person that do not correct themselves when they have support from the professional psychologists within an equal money system



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42 - FAQ Who decides the prices of products and services



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46 - FAQ Will Education be an Obligation



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48 - FAQ Who will be the rubbish remover in an Equal Money System



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49 - FAQ Will chemicals still be produced



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50 - FAQ The Power of 10 will save our Home