Life or Ego, what is that you see in another?

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not see the LIFE in the humans.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to just see only the mind and ego in the humans.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to only look at what i want to see in humans and thereby deny the very LIFE that exist within humans.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself only to look at the ego and mind in the humans, that is because my ego loves to see only the ego in others.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to limit humans to egos and minds.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to like seen humans as egos and minds and nothing else.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see humans as embodiments of LIFE, therefore worthy of respect and honor just like how i liked to be respected and honored.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the LIFE portion within the humans so that i can make all kids of judgement about them.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see only what i want to see in humans, which is their egos and minds.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to only see the egos in humans so that i can judge them as fucking bastards which implies that i am perfect.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to never ask the question why is that i only look at the ego in the humans, why is that i look their limited minds and their MCS ? knowing very well each  human is a MCS, i still judge them and limit them and deny them the honor and respect they deserve as LIFE.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately ignore the LIFE thingy within the humans and just see only their egos and minds.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to only see what i like to see which allows me to make war with them and against them. had i taken a moment to see the LIFE in the vilan, i would have understood him/her to be equal and one as myself, but no, i only want to see their egos and minds which is nothing but their MCS. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not realize humans are MCS, and embodiment of LIFE, therefore if i only see their MCS i will only see their MCS, and hence all my judgements about them will be justified. after all we all know about MCS, and its very nature. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself blame humans and judge humans for been MCS. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame humans for been egoistic. in this i don't realize that everyone is an ego, everyone is a MCS, everyone is controlled and preprogrammed, therefore there is nothing to blame about, simply see and understand it and not judge them for been MCS. it is what it is. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge humans for not applying self forgiveness. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge humans for been self dishonest. then i can hide my own self dishonesty.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself blame others for been dishonest, in that i can hide my own bullshit.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for been MCS/Egos, so in  that i can hide my own MCS and ego which i cannot stand anymore.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to declare war against other egos and in that destroy the LIFE that is embodied within them. basically whenever i declare war against any EGO, i am declaring war against LIFE too.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge egos and MCS.


when and as i see myself judging another for been an ego or MCS, i simply stop myself realising that it is what it is. if they had the chance to apply self forgiveness like me, they might have a chance at least to over come their egos. but no, they haven't got hold of SF yet, so i cannot blame them or hurt them for been EGOs, as that is the nature of all humans. so am i going to war with each because they are EGOs?


when and as i see myself going to war with another ego, i simply stop it, knowing that it is my own ego seeking a war, to fuel and feed itself. 
when and as i see myself ignoring the LIFE in another and see only their EGO, i stop myself realising that i am now been spiteful because i deliberately look only at their EGOs, because i want war. so i stop myself from looking at their EGOic patterns, because i know the more i look at their egos the more wars will turn out. therefore i simply breath, and remain here physical. i know the other is ego is just me as well, it is another as me.


really, who the fuck am i? i am here as breath, as breath of life. and i know everyone else is LIFE too for sure, it just their are MCS and egos as well. so i will not focus on their egos to declare war. 

I am a master at self-sabotage.

my urge to self destroy is getting stronger these days. I suppose these are the days of self-sabotage, its a phase within the process each is walking now. For me, i have always been a master at self-sabotage. I am driven by emotions to self-destroy, more than anything. When I feel certain painful feelings I will justify to myself that, yes I must quit, I must end. I have resigned a few jobs in the past within the first 2-3 years into the job, when the going  get tough I will simply call it a day. Or when a relationship becomes a bit painful, I will walk myself out of it. Not realizing the emotions that i feel is something i must transcend without running away from the issue. Ok how many times am i going to resigned a job, how many times am i going to quit a relationship, how many times am i going to move out this town?

when and as i see myself justifying myself to 'quit' something, i will hold myself there, not allow myself to follow through on it. because i know, once i give into the process of quitting, its a matter of time, the quitting will manifest, i have been there many times, i have quieted many times, i left relationships many times. so when and as i see myself preparing to leave, i will simply breathe here, as i know one day i will be a deadman, will be buried 6 foot under, so no point really quitting this job or relationship, better to work it out, better to speak/talk and reach an agreement. yes, without ever giving into the emotions of wanting to end, i can leave a situation if it is the last resort, but it is certainly not the first resort. so when and as i see myself wanting to end  something, like a job or relationship, i simply return to breath, i am breathing, i am alone here, as in life and death everyone is alone, so why bother to runaway just because i feel a bit of emotions called 'pain'. it just emotions, energy. tomorrow, i will not even know what is this pain i feel today is like, for sure, i cannot remember any emotions/pain/hurts i felt yesterday or yesteryear, yet i have often ran away from many situations because i just could not bear the pain of the moment. so i have been there, i see how in futile to running away is. i am breathing. so when and as i see myself wanting to end, i simply breath, as i know, i should be here now, not within the process of thinking about how to end, at which, i am a master. so remain here.

oh god, how many times have i ran away? how many times will i threaten people that i will ran away? i am breath i am here.

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To die like a fly on the windscreen

Just one life to live, my death is a sure certainty.

So the question to ask is, what the HELL am I going to do before I die ? Dying as a hero is out of the question, I am no hero. Dying as a famous singer is out of the question. Dying as a famous personality is out of the question, or dying as a sought-after scientist is beyond me, dying as a rich man is useless. Or dying as a political head is beyond me too. Or even dying as an artist or writer is rather late now. Very likely I will die as a normal person who lived a normal life. At the end of the day, my life is rather an uneventful journey, nothing significant to talk about, nor to remember about.

Basically like a fly on the windscreen I will die someday. Perhaps a decent funeral, because I know my brother is a kind of a guy who will do such bullshit, so I may get a decent family funeral. So that is all about my life in a summary. So I better find a really damn good mission to do before I die, to make my life a useful one. Otherwise, my life would be forgotten like a dead fly on the windscreen.

Within the desteni process, self-forgiveness, self honesty, and equal money system, I found all meaning to my life and therefore to my death. Till I die and beyond I will stand for Equal Money System, this is to bring about a practical heaven on earth, so that every human being can live in dignity and die in dignity. I didn’t live in dignity , and surely I will not die in dignity, as I lived my whole life in fear of survival and self-deceit. Because to survive I had to lie, to cheat, to be dishonest etc, while 25,000 humans die tonight in hunger or related causes, I am here enjoying blogging and vlogging. I have the privilege to sit in the comfort of home in luxury. Yet many die in hunger tonight, which I accept and allow as normal.

Therefore as long as I live, I want to scream and shout about the world conditions, about the hunger of many, as they don’t have a voice to scream and shout. So I will shout on their behalf. I will scream on their behalf. Those 25,000 may die tonight, as I am still here, I will shout and scream on their behalf so a new world will be born, and starvation/hunger will be seen ever again. Obviously I too will die one day, so still have time to shout and scream to end the starvation and madness of this world. But I am not going to waste my time in useless shouting and screaming, I will do it smartly, as a group, with the principle of one man one vote, seeking votes to bring about a new set of laws to end all abuses everywhere. Therefore to implement equal money system is the first immediate goal, worldwide.

Even then, I may still die like a fly on the windscreen, but at least I will leave a world with Equal Money System for all to live in dignity. Who knows, if I were to return, at least this planet will be a place of support and assistance. I will not have to worry and fear about paychecks, rent, housing, healthcare bills, water, food, education, layoffs, etc.

Can you imagine how this earth will be in the next 10,000 years ? At desteni, we propose a practical heaven on earth though Equality for All.  

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Write something write anything.

Write something, write anything, write to self-freedom. write to expose the cruelties of this world, write to self expose the madness of self-ego and its undoing. write something, write anything, in not writing you isolate yourself to just the mind.  write  your understandings about the current economic system, write about the corporate greed, write how profit seeking is fucking everything in this world. write about the madness of capitalism, take it into pieces. write about the proposed new economic model, equal money system. write your understanding about Equality for all. write about heaven on earth, your understanding about it.

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'Blame' will destroy your relationships.

So-called emotional love is not real. In my life I find this love is a very challenging thing. It is because love is defined as an emotion, as a feeling, hence with the energetic rise and fall of emotions, love goes up and down. Along with it, happiness and suffering, joy and sorrow becomes the living reality. This why many couples fight, argue and get separated who once claimed to love each other but soon their love turned bitter and nasty. Emotions will rise and fall along with goes the ride of life never stable or steady.

Blame is a great love destroyer. Constant fault finding, blaming can destroy things. I mean WTF is Blame? Blame is  a discussion where the sole purpose is to find faults than to find agreements. Its often mixed with anger, hate, past memories, and not related to the present situation at hand, rather one is stuck in the mind pattern just to knock another down. Obviously, there are often real issues between any two people when they start living together. So how does one overcome blame? First make decision not to blame, second make decision to discuss matters respectfully, and listen to each other for the sole purpose of finding an agreement so that co-existence is possible and happy. What often happens is just one is blamed with utter nastiness and spite until the one simply cracks or becomes totally withdrawn.

I am more of a blamer, I find it within me that i will fault find for the sake of just knocking my wife off. I copied this pattern of blaming from my bad, the great master blamer. its fascinating how an exact copy of him, that i have become. I used to despise him for his blaming quality, now i do the exact same thing. This is called the sins of the fathers.

I am realizing that blame of any sort must stop. Instead find respectful means to discuss and reach agreements that are livable and practical. Beings i live with are myself, i am them, they are me, it just i cannot experience it as such. I have read in desteni materials that "what would do yo do, if you were the only BEING in existence, whom would do u blame". Very good question, the point is, everyone is LIFE, equal and one as life as me. I am everyone, realizing that come to support and assist each other, stop blame because blame destroys.

I am in the process of giving myself to me, I find the going is tough, I find i am often falling into old mind patterns, I continue to blame, fault find, and destroy things. Yet there is no other way, simply re-continue, re-start this process with self-forgiveness and self-honesty. There is no other way.

The fall is also a point of rise.

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RIP - Rot in Peace.

Soon I will be RIP, rot in peace, and that is the reality for everyone. It's only a matter of very short time. Knowing that death is an utter certainty, why the fuck do I still live in the bullshit of my selfishness ? Ignoring the entire 6-7 billion humans and their plights, i merrily go living happily ever after, as if death will never touch me. that is the fucking illusion.

Since I am going to die anyways, why not leave a world so that all can live in dignity? My death is assured, my departure is assured, so why not make a real contribution to this earth before I rot in peace? Alternatively I could waste my remaining days in utter selfishness just live to survive day by day till the last day, and then, disappear one fine day. Totally gone, vanished.

I dont' want to just die, I want to bring about Equal Money System before I go. At least I will know, for all millions of future generations to come, this earth will be a welcoming home, a place where all life is unconditionally supported and honored.

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Who knows, I might even reincarnate back into this earth to find a practical heaven on earth, thanks Equal Money System. However to return to the current Capitalistic system would be a suicidal reincarnation.