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Death will Take All Your Money. You go Empty Hands.

This is a very well known principle that death will remove all things for good. All your money, all your properties, all your belongings will be taken away, and vultures will be waiting to enjoy your things while you're on your deathbed. Its true all that you got will be gone, no more, none is left.


Yet in living this life, protecting one's money and belongings is something we all do, rich and the poor alike. we grab and holding onto all things as if we will carry our belongings to eternity. This existence has been around for a while, and I dont' think anyone carried their personal belongings from birth to birth. Even that thing called soul is no more, its been SOLD out. 


Then what is there to carry over? well that's another blog. The point here is, why hold on to belongings and money, why protect them with all cost? What if death knocks the door today? Am I ready to give it up all and go? 


In my life, I found, I am very protective when it comes to sharing and supporting my partner with resources and money. I count, like a good capitalist, I see what is the return for my spending, I dont' unconditionally ( with common sense of course) support my partner, you can say I am cheap and stingy when it comes to supporting her. Fear of been used for money, fear that may be all she want is money. May be that is why she is with me, because she just wants my money. Those are the thoughts I entertain whenever the point of spending money comes. 


But what if death comes tonight? I have to leave it all. Fuck, knowing all that, I still protect and hold tight to my resources and money. 


I need a new script for myself:


When and as I see myself protecting and holding in cheapness when it comes to supporting my partner, I breathe, I take a moment, I realize that death will remove all belongings, death will remove all moneys, so there is no point in giving into fears and not supporting my partner here at this very physical practical moment. In realizing that death removes all, I open up myself, I allow myself to support her unconditionally. This is the new script I write onto myself, I give myself and share myself unconditionally. Really, only in giving one receives; there is no other way, to say I must get before I give, is capitalism, and I do not subscribe to  capitalism. So I give first in that I receive.


In death, all is given out anyways until nothing is left, so might as well, give now. So this is my new script, I take a breath, a moment, I breathe, I imagine myself dead and in the box, awaiting burial, I see that all my stuff has been given out, just a hole in the ground is awaiting for me. I am going to go empty hands for sure, so why not, share now here, and give myself to my partner fully here. After all, she is myself in another life, I am only giving to myself, it is utter foolishness to believe that I am sharing with or giving to 'another'. 


This is point I have been working on it for a while. 


So till here no further, I will no longer accept and allow myself to give into fears and hold anything back.
till here no further, I will no longer accept and allow myself to hold myself back from supporting and sharing. 
till here no further, I will no longer accept and allow myself to hoard and hide my belongings in fear of sharing. Realizing all my belongings are not mine at all, they are simply here must be giving up at death. So might as well, share and manifest what is best for all within my agreement. 


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Thoughts build up fears.

Fear sucks. fear of loss sucks. fear of death sucks. fear of any kind sucks. Yet this is what I have been living, holding onto fears of various types. Fear has become like oxygen without which we cannot live. Some sort of fear is needed apparently for the mind to grab onto. Such a dumb stupid thing this thing called fear. The funny thing about fear is the more you fear the more likely you will draw such eventual reality unto yourself. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in fear. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in fear of losing things in my life. 


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing all I have got.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to losing my relationship. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear living alone.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear living without any relationship in my life.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing the relationship I have.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all fears that I have are only possible if I allow them within me by participating in them. The more I think about fears, the more they compound, really fear is self created.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in fear b'c I think about fearful shit. As I think, I experience. As I see the moment, I experience the moment. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself live in fear bc' I think fearful thoughts, I think what-if thoughts, I think what-he--said-she-said thoughts. I mean I think fear therefore I create fear.


By thinking I allow emotion of fears to compound within me, and I allow them to build up more and more, then viola, a big bang must be needed to release them. So that is how I experience by building up shit within me.


So what is corrective statement for this fear based living, is following:


When and as I see myself participating in ANY form of FEAR, I mean ANY form of fear, I tell myself, oh oh, the thoughts of fears are back. meaning, if I chose to follow them, even very slightly, I will end up in fucked up fearland. Once I touch the fucked up fearland, it would a matter of time before some kind of a hell manifest.


So really,  to contain fear is that simple, just not participate in thoughts of fear. After all during my deep sleeps at night, I dont' feel any fears, I mean even a cobra could crawl over my body, I wouldnt' know a thing, b'c I will be not thinking about the cobra b'c I am at deep sleep. While day time, I see a rope, and I start to panic, b'c I think it might be a snake, or I will recall a memory of a snake and associate that rope to a snake, all that happens as thoughts so fast. quantum fears.


if I could only just breath and not entertain any ANY ANY form of thoughts about fears, oh well, fear could not grip me. Yes, the accumulated momentum of fear is still there, so that is why breathing is still vital, it anchors you HERE as breath. 


Next time, I go into fucked up fearland, I stop it immediately, right here right now, allowing myself only breathing no thinking whatsoever. 


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Declare War against Emotions and Feelings?

Feelings and Emotions are the Hollywood production house of the MIND to make the illusion exhilarating and intoxicating.

Another great Common Sense quote by Bernard Poolman. Feelings and Emotions are the Hollywood production house of the mind to make the illusion exhilarating and intoxicating. Worth repeating those words until they sink in, how amazingly true.


Feelings and Emotions, how fucked are you with those Feelings and Emotions. They fuck us up every day, every hour, every minute, in fact every breath is consumed by the Feelings and Emotions. 


I don't know about you, but I am for sure sick and tired of Feelings and Emotions. As they have pretty much messed up my life for the most part. I have been a total victim of my Feelings and Emotions, always giving into them, always falling victim to my own Feelings and Emotions. This has brought much suffering and calamity to my life in so many occasions. Not mention the physical and financial distress as a consequence. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as Feelings and Emotions.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be the Feelings and Emotions that I am.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust my Feelings and Emotions. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beLIEve in my Feelings and Emotions. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have faith and trust in my Feelings and Emotions. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have confidence in my Feelings and Emotions.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider my Feelings and Emotions to be my God whom I must trust and worship at all cost. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider my Feelings and Emotions to arise from a source of wisdom hence it must be listened to and followed up. Not realizing my Feelings and Emotions are pre-programmed entities whose sole purpose is to fuck up my life and enforce me as a slave. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let Feelings and Emotions control me and direct me. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself let Feelings and Emotions guide me and direct me and control me. Which I have accepted and allowed to happen over and over again.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a robot whose system is programmed via Feelings and Emotions. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself let mind-controllers preprogramm myself with Feelings and Emotions. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as Feelings and Emotions. All I am is a bundle of Emotions and Feelings. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my behavior based upon how I feel and what emotions are running within me.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my behavior entirely based on my Feelings and Emotions. 


All I am is Emotions and Feelings. 


As Emotions and Feelings, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist just to manipulate and control human minds.


As Emotions and Feelings, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist just to fuck up humans.


As Emotions and Feelings, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to control humans as little robots who are under my direct control and influence. 


As Emotions and Feelings, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to destroy human life because that is what I enjoy doing. To bring destruction to humans. 


As Emotions and Feelings, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make humans kill each other and destroy each other. 


As Emotions and Feelings, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as God of humanity, whose fate rest in me. I decide what they do, or how they live, or how they behave. 


As Emotions and Feelings, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist just for the sake of destroying humans. 


As Emotions and Feelings, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist for the sole purpose of wanting to destroy all things by simply resting within human minds. 


As Emotions and Feelings, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to occupy humans 24/7 in fact every breath of their lives. I control them, I occupy them. 


As Emotions and Feelings, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to occupy and control humans by resting within their minds. I am the God of humans as I control them, I am their master. 


I breathe, I remain here.


When and as I see myself getting consumed by Feelings and Emotions, I know, a systematic possession has taken place, so in realizing that, I stop it by simply breathing here. Breath is only key to overcome the mind control imposed by Emotions and Feelings. I am not at war with my Emotions and Feelings, however, I do realize, its all what I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as. I am not separate from my Emotions and Feelings, its all me. So as my Emotions and Feelings, I stop myself from controlling and directing myself. I am here. Breathing. 


I breathe, and I stop myself as Emotions and Feelings. I am not at war with parts of myself, no, I just stop parts of myself that is not supporting the End of My Mind. 


So as Emotions and Feelings, I stop myself, I stop the Hollywood production house of the MIND to make illusion exhilarating and intoxicating. I am here breathing.


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Attention Seeking Parasites: Stop it with breathing Here.

Yeh this is a point over and over again showing up. In so many subtle ways I seek attention from others. It could be a small thing like giving someone a ride, or chatting with someone, and I notice I do so to get their attention. To have a chit-chat is to have them pay full attention to me. Of course, when offering a ride, I am driving so the passenger will give all the attention to me. So three is crowd, two is a company is so true for energy seeking parasites like myself. 


Who or what is that within me seeking so much attention and approval? Is it me or some parasite in me that is seeking endless attention? Of course, its me, me as my mind, me as my ego seeking energy boast via attention to sustain myself as mind, as ego, etc. 


So what will happen if I don't get the desired attention? Sad, lonely, isolated, pity, angry, depressed, and bunch of related diseases. Feeling of being left out is a big one for me, I quickly go into that pity feelings of being isolated by others. 


I have to really watch out for how I seek attention in small subtle ways. Offering rides, chatting, emailing, all such doing without any practical purpose but only to get an energy boast. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek attention in subtle ways, in small ways, in unnoticeable ways.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek energy and attention from others so I initiate conversations just to have chit chats. Just to get attention from others. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize when I start chatting with someone, I do so just to get attention from them. As I have no practical need for a chat. Even when I enjoy chatting with someone, I start the chat just to get noticed by them. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to get noticed by people and do subtle things to get their attention. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire and want attention from others, and in that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do things just to get their attention.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need friends to feed my energetic mind/ego.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the core problem is not been here as breath, therefore going into my mind, which directs me to get energy through others. so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be here as breath. 


As a self corrective step, I state: when and as I see myself doing or saying things to get attention from a person or group, I realize the old pattern, which demands and plays dramas to get attention, so realizing that I will simply stop it. I will breath it out and not give into the mind's rush to make some drama to get attention specially when I am in a group setting. 


So next time I am in a group setting, I will simply focus on here, been here, doing what is needed to be done here and not go in the group mode and start cracking jokes etc. If a conversation is started, and if I have something common sense to share then yes I will speak, but not just imposing my knowledge and information unto others so that they will notice me as a wise guy, or cool guy hence give me attention. 


Just be here, either alone, one to one, threesome, or a group, I am here just me, speak when needed. Constantly doing or talking shit to get attention from others sucks, and I realize it makes them run away from me. 


Who wants to be with an energy parasite. On the other hand, its cool to be with someone who is HERE totally and who speaks common sense not just cracking jokes and making noise to get attention. It stinks to be with a verbal diarrhea. 


So I stop such patterns as I notice them within me by breathing, I know that I can live in a whole new way, just been here as breath. I don't need to be a parasite seeking attention all the time, it is in fact very tiring on me and others, which makes any relationship nearly impossible to grow. No wonder I don't have any real connections with anyone, because I am never Here to connect with anyone, I am too busy seeking attention from others. So I breathe. 


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Mitt r(oMney) with mOney wins. Study Equal Money System.

Today January 30th 2012, I just read in the news that Republican Presidential candidate Mitt Romney has won the primaries in Florida. Mitt RoMney sure has the Money just as his name sound to win any election.   


Winning an election is about having loads of money, one way or other. Most of it goes for advertisements, to convince the dumb masses via popular media. Of course its harvest time for TV companies too, who are burning midnight oil cashing the election cash cow to make all they can. After all, this  big money cow only comes once in 4 years.


If you ponder about the whole thing for a while, you will realize, what an absurd stupid system is this, men with loads of money are able to convince us about their electability? They can win because they have money to spend? This madness is not just in the US, now its a worldwide phenomena, men or women with money get or buy their votes to high offices. Of course in the US, its already over 1 billion $ spend so far in 2012 Presidential campaign. I wonder what will be the final total wasted when US Presidential election is all settled. Easily into few billions.


In the meanwhile, millions if not billions in our world are in very destitute life situations, some even starve for days, while nearly 21,000 humans die a day. But who cares, election drama must continue, the big boys will spend so they can enjoy, do great things, while in office. No wonder no politician ever worry about the average guy while in office, because they have to first take care of their donors, their corporate masters, who helped them get elected in the first place.


Just curious, ever wonder what is the total money spend annually by all politicians in the world just to get elected to their respective offices? For every democratic country in the world, add up every candidate seeking any public office, now if you lucky, add up every dollar spend by each such candidate. Will that be billions of dollars or trillions?


The world as a whole is spending so much just for Elections while millions starve to death? Instead why can't this world spend that money for public education, public healthcare, public transportation, public housing etc etc? Can't we make election a no-cost operation? Candidates should not be allowed spend a dollar for TV campaigning, just let them do all their convincing through some 'dedicated government TV channel' or youtube, or blogging. Because big part of the campaign money is going for paid advertisements and its a gigantic business, its an entire economy all by itself.


This election money madness is getting worse, now its billions spend, in 10-15 years, I wonder how much election spending will be. But sooner or later, its the average Joe who will have to somehow pay the bill for all that. Average citizen is the real payer for all vanity spending. It looks like Mitt R(omney) did it with his own big (Money), well where did he get his money from? 


Citizens are the slaves for the capitalistic masters of this world. Citizens are caught in their big fights, masters appear to bleed, but in reality, its the average citizen that bleeds on behalf of the elite. This madness must stop just like all other mad crazy shit that is going on in our world now. All in the name of making profits and grabbing power. 


Equal Money System will end the cancer of Capitalism forevermore. It will be a whole new world. And if you're like myself, sick and tired of this world system and how it works, join us, join desteni, learn first how to change yourself, and change this world. 


With Equal Money, no more sweet victory for R(omney) with (Money) as all will win equally, life will be dignified for all. For sure, there won't be election spending, all elections will be free of cost, simply utilizing the power of technology.


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Exposing abuses is cool, but don't get killed in doing so.

Exposing abuses in our world is cool, but don't be foolish and get killed in doing so. Recently I am chatting with a FB friend who is exposing abuses in his native country, but in doing so he has placed himself in a very precarious situation. The man is now hunted and haunted. Under severe stress he is experiencing depression, anxiety and related problems in addition to homeless and uncertainty. 


So breathe, calm down, relax, be smart and don't fucking get killed. Don't seek to be a hero, once you're dead, man, you're gone. The change you wish to bring will never come to your country if you're dead. 


At the moment, the best advice to my FB friend is, get on with your self-forgiveness process. Get established in self-honesty, and self-trust. This is not a pill to overcome your mental problems overnight, but an opportunity to rebirth self as life through the physical. And you can't do that if you're constantly on the run and been hunted by those who are in power. So best is to immediately seek self-protection, meaning hide away into physical safety. Then, slowly get yourself establish in the system, i.e. job, home, etc. There is no need to 'fight' the bullies in our world. Specially there is no need for 'personal fights' against those who are corrupt and powerful. 


I mean even if you take down the most corrupt man in your country, what will you achieve? Simply nothing. See Egypt, Mubarak disappeared, now another set of bullies running the show. My point is, its cool to expose via blogs and vlogs about world abuses, but please don't get fucking killed in doing so. 


Live to change this world. That means, walk this desteni process, self-forgive yourself, change yourself, get established in self-honesty, self-trust, self-breathing, and birth yourself as life. And realize changing this world, you cannot do as a one man show, it can only be done as a group. Desteni is a group that is growing and expanding worldwide which stands as a voice to birth a new world. So join us, by starting your self-forgiveness process, then start walking this process with us as a group. Both self-change and world-change happens side by side. 


Then in time, desteni message, namely the implementation of Equal Money System will enter the political arena leading to actual practical changes in our world. You can read tons of stuff about Equal Money System in our sites, or just google it.


The point here is, first stop getting killed, start your self change process, then walk the world change process. In time, as a group, we will do the required through democratic one-man one-vote principle. You can already see how as a group desteni is expanding and voicing every day about the world situation. Our noise is getting louder and stronger. We do so with care, certainly don't want to get killed in doing so, Common Sense. 


There is another subtle point here. All those so-called evils in this world, who is responsible for them? You and Me, and Us. Each of us equally responsible for the madness that is here today. Even the evil of men like Hitler manifested because what humanity accepted and allowed.  What each human accepted and allowed created this hell on earth. Therefore there is no point in starting personal wars against bullies and getting killed. Of course blog and vlog, but fuck, not at the cost of getting killed. 


Keep in mind, this is not a personal war between good and evil. You realize that "I am responsible for all that is here". Within that realization, personal battles stop, and you will work for real change. 


Lastly, I am sure you will agree with me, change doesn't mean just getting rid of one singular problem from our world, we need to change the entire world system, in fact, we need heaven on earth, where every living being can have a dignified life here on earth. 


So get yourself to safety, get established with a job, home, etc, and begin your self-forgiveness process, lets bring real change to this world to end all abuses forevermore. As you might know already, today nearly 21,000 humans will die out of hunger or related diseases, nearly 1 billion will starve and untold other sufferings going on. We can't fight or punish anyone for this, its humanity's problem, its our problem. Hence lets take practical steps first so you can actually participate to bring real changes to this world. 


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